Seeing how the energy of your mom is slowly decaying little by little…
Seeing how each of her energy was going down… feeling useless when you were three or four years old… you will feel that you cannot breathe… You would like to cry right in that moment but instead of crying you… you smile to your mom because the moment was already tragic so smiling was one of the ways she can still remembering you before her heart stops beating… You would like that she reminds you smiling than crying but before she closes her eyes… before saying “goodbye to her” you hug her with all your effort and love. By hugging her…You will show to her that you will always love her no matter where she will be but you will still love her because the bond between a mother&kid is so strong that no one will be able to break it without their permission.
You would like to exchange your life for her but… you cannot…
The traumatic event will be recorded forever in your memories…
Sometimes, you will feel that half of your body is dead but you should be the one who should encounter the key to open the box and let that negative energy run away from you. You should be the one who stands up for yourself even though there is tough moment… you will need to believe that you can go through any struggle because you will need to believe that you are strong enough to go through anything, and nothing and no one will make you weak because in your weaknesses you will be the strongest… Just believe that you can go through the darkest tunnel. In the end, … there will be a beautiful rainbow waiting for you…
because everything is possible.
According to Audrey Hepburn, Nothing is impossible. The world itself says I’m possible
to be happy.
to smile again…
to be loved one more time…
be you one more time…
you are beautiful emotionally and physically!!
When there was no hospital around you… when there were not doctors to revive your mother, and the baby your mother was carrying out with her dies too… you will need to realize… that… sometimes, born in a poor country will make you realize that… you cannot always control or stop the time no matter how hard you try because no one is capable to stop the time nor control it. Everything happens once because you live the moment once so as someone told me once… Make the most of your moment so make it possible. Sometimes, some people last forever but not always they do…. Unless you make the impossible making it possible… if you believe it… use your wings to fly! Fly! Fly and keep flying
Life will not give you any explanation but you should be the one who connects the dots… you will realize that
You will need to realize that no matter how many letters you write to her… she will never reply you back because she is resting in peace…
When you try to push the wall and you cry as many times as you can… you will realize… you cannot bring her back because you don’t have powers…
When you feel that you don’t want to keep eating… but you will need to still keep in mind that you should keep eating because you either eat and survive or you die for not eating and you die for sadness…
You would like that she hugs you one more time but she will not hug you because she cannot see you, she cannot talk to you, she cannot say I love you to you or I am proud of you… or the woman you have decided to become.
At the end…
instead of saying sometimes, you will realize that she is still with you because people who you love…Only they die if you consider them dead but if you still remembering them, and loving them… they will stay present in your life so keep remembering and loving them if they matter to you.
If you lost your….
Your daughter-in- Law
Your best friend
The whole family because there was a war in your country…
Keep remembering them if you care about them. Keep them in your memories because if you want that they last forever… they will last forever in your heart.
Shake the Earth like an Earthquake
Stand tall like Bury Khalifa which the tallest tower in the world.
Fly faster like a Peregrine Falcon.
Be loyal and caring like an Elephant.
Fight ( mentally ) like you.
You are stronger than you believe so keep trusting in yourself because you are the person who will love you the most… and never forget to keep drawing a smile on your face because…. Keep in mind this:
YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY. THEREFORE, TRY TO BE HAPPY!
Keep these quotes in mind:
Quote 1: “you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.” __ Bob Marley
Quote 2: “Strength isn’t about how much you can handle before you break. It’s about how much you can handle after you break.”__Unknown author
Quote 3: “Beautiful has nothing to do with looks. It’s how you are as a person and how you make others feel about themselves.”__ TR
Quote 4: “When you lose someone you love, you gain an angel you know.” __Unknown author
Quote 5: “Ability is what you’re capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it.” __ Lou Hoitz